If you ask me where would I be right now? I’ll simply say the very moment and place you asked me that question. I’m scared of changes, yet I seek the thrill for the unknown. All the moments and all the seconds I’ve lived leads up to the moment you asked that statement. Between the seconds of thinking time, between the infinities of nanoseconds and so and so - I know I’m terrified. Things are changing, you see it I think.

Taking a gap year was uncommon so I went straight into my very first semester of university after graduating from my sixth form college. I haven’t taken a proper break ever since; I got my first job not long after graduating from undergrad studies working at a firm in Jakarta, then my work contract ended, and the world went into lockdown mode.

When we open a new door, a lot of uncertainties awaits us. We fear the idea of the unknown and the risk of experiencing something that could tear us apart. Anxiety and what ifs lingers our mind for not knowing what’s next.